Manifestation of Feeling and Thought

I don’t exactly know how I feel. On the outside I’m happy, I’m fine. Everything is just what people want to see. But on the inside its a whole other story. I feel such intense sorrow. Sorrow that that is exploding inside of me, but can’t ever escape, no it’s trapped too tightly beneath the surface. There it manifests, eating away at all other emotions until it has consumed them all one by one. But then my sadness becomes lonely, and there in the depths of my heart it creates for itself three companions; Anger, Confusion, and Fear. Together the become so strong, they are so united, that they take over the outside, banishing contentment, finally escaping the core of my being. They are out in the open now, free for the world to see, to judge, to mock. The exposure becomes to much for them, and so they retreat back into the abyss, creating a new face that would be accepted by the outside world. Behind this face they now hide, waiting for an escape that will never come. Never come until my heart stops beating. And this now becomes their goal.